Those memory.

When I flip back the pages of memory, those tak-nak-ingat moment appears, and all in all it hurt a bit in there. I don't know why, maybe because how you was before. And now, in present, I know I wasn't really the choice, but it was out of choice that you chooses me. Knew that though. I just hope are happy with what you do and still won't forget me in the future. Because I really misses the old time back when we're just friend.
P/s : Rather losing love than a friend though.  

I miss you bongek!

And I happen to 'ternampak' gambar dye. And these un-utter-inside-the-heart-but-utter-outside-with-silly-ness-words come out, "I miss you bongek!'. And which I know, I really miss that person.
P/s : So silly heart!

The love. One.

Assalamualaikum readers, how do feel when your love one called, and you didn't manage to pick up? Adding on, it is a very hard thing for your love one to call you. Especially when he only have very little spare time compared to his working hours. Plus that you haven't seen him in quiet a period. And he's so busy working even when he's home. How do you feel about that? I don't know how do you readers feel, but I, the author feel deeply, ironically, tragically down and regret. 

P/ s : Yes, father called and I didn't manage to pick up. I miss you daddy.

Jom main yoyo.

Bila kau bt aku macam yoyo aku rasa aku tak layak bg kau peluang. Aku sayang kau. Tp bila aku diyoyokan. Aku tak dapat maafkan kau. Sebab aku juga punya perihal yang perlu aku langsaikan. Aku mintak maaf. Sangat2.

Sorry, I can't love you because...

I have no time to be loving you. Because I only have time to love Him. I'm sorry you. I couldn't be help. May Allah bless you and me.

The untold story.

Was with my little sister, called mummy. Chat with her. 
Us : Bu, kami nk claim expenses g KL eh.
Mom : Hmmm *silent*
Us : Bu, kami nak claim...
*passes phone*
*over there*
"Yes, ape die?"

P/s : Ouhh, mummy so efficient! Passes over to daddy right away! 

Just now, little sister got a text from mommy.
"Slm...mlm td kt org msukkn dlm cimb islamic angah rm*** utk claim awk org ke KL...*** sorg...

P/s : That is so our parents. U name it. U get it. I hope I wouldn't hurt them by any meant and always help them to be in Jannah and always make them happy inside outside. 

Fitnah fitrah.

Cinta itu fitrah, tapi jangan sampai jd fitnah.

Aku suka sakit.

Abah sering lontar kata "sakit itu asbab ampun dosa". Maka, aku suka, aku suka sakit. Kerana Allah masih syg aku. Aku diberi ruang ampun dosa yang menggunung. Aku suka, aku syukur.
P/s : Demam sikit je pon, bukannye parah. Orang lain sakit lagi teruk. Bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

Her style.

It's her style to be helping people without placing her benefits in the first place. It's her style to be helping people until she are tired. It's her style to be helping until others get what they want. It's so her style. That is so her style. So her :) Yesterday, she texted me, telling,

her : Syg, aku nak call kau, tp xsempat2 plus sngt bz..syg, ri tu aku bg speech on drug addicts, then u know what? I get 3ekar tnh, n that person need me to run to make agriculture land, then dia suh pkerja2 dia tdiri dr  ex drug adict n jobless, aku happy sngt!my dream come true.alhamdullilah

I'm happy for her. Deeply happy. I've known her for 5 years and I hope this ukhwah will last. I just love her. That's all.

*Last raya :)*

His day.

Yesterday was his birthday. I almost forgot about yesterday, but my bestfriend, Fatimah Hidayat called. I didn't know what to do either text him, call him, paste upon his FB wall, mail him or else. Lastly, I decided to do this and posted on my wall. Late at night later, he texted me,

him : Pergh! Vid 2 glew best haha ble wat?tharu glew babeng ak haha
me : Tgahry td, hehe kantoi, sorry b, pape pong, HB 2 u, may ALLAH bless us, hv a tremendous life, love u b :)
him : Npe nk sory nye syg,one of the best present i ever get in this life :-) thx sgt2 to both of u :-) nk ngih ase.love u too dear

What I want to share is that, I hope this ukhwah will last forever, till Jannah, inshaALLAH :)

*Last raya @ Fatimah's place*

Mr. M.I.

I use to love you, and I still love you, M.I.

Jawab soalan mommy.

Mommy asked,
mommy : "kenape Allah x kabulkan terus doa kite bile kite doa?"
me : "sbb kalo Allah bg sume yg hambe mintok, dok cukup ke org laen pulok"
mommy : "betol gok tu....Allah jugok suke dengor sore kite, sbb tu Allah nk v teruh, Allah suke kite minte2 pada-Nya"

A chapter in a book.

I'm currently reading a book. That so page has made flutter, fly in it so fantasy. But i realize, it is just a fantasy, a dream. I need to start reading the next page, so I have to stop reading on the same page over and over again. I'll make the so page as one of the dream I had in my sleep so that I can start reading the next.
P/S : I love books (^o^)

I am KEDEKUT~

Yes, indeed, I AM kedekut. So much and deeply kedekut. I always keep my pencil case off the table so that people wouldn't easily grab it. I always keep my mug inside the room after using it. I always put my detergent in that so corner so people wouldn't notice it. I always audit my hanger and sepit baju. I always write my name on my stuff. Yes, I AM kedekut. Just so you know(if you are reading). That so bike you rode in the evening is mine, not theirs. I have never let other people ride on my bike. Seeing you on my so bike, breaks my heart darling. I hope this wouldn't happen again. 

Rather an interesting day for me :)

I went out with my fellow darlings yesterday(I meant 2 days ago, I was late in updating this darling readers, sorry!), Darling Adda, Darling Eda & Fatimah Sayang. I went out with Fa after Zohor prayer, we went directly to Yellow Town and grab a seat in AnW. We sat there, and have an indeed long chat. We talk, we chat, we laugh, we giggles, we love each other :) and that's it, final! For me, having a chat with her that, has made me a rather different person, I have become a pusher to her. All this while, I only become her neutralizer, I would always lay out a solution that would make support her or make her happy, but yesterday, I become her pusher, and indeed, I need to, she was telling me about a rather the most important thing in a women life, its like the biggest event in her life  I bet(if it was me, it IS the most important thing in my life, the penentuan of you going to Jannah or Saqar). After that, she sent me home, and I went out with Eda and Adda, we went shopping to Tunas Manja, getting things for cooking spaghetti. WE ARE MAKING SPAGHETTI TODAY(singing happily :D)_AND ONCE AGAIN, IT'S YESTERDAY I MEANT, SORRY AGAIN DEAR READERS!_. Then, we went to Yellow Town, wandering there for like hours, looking for this and that. Within that, met(coincidentally actually) with my ex-scandal, mr R(bukan nama sebenar), and to be exact he hi-ed me first, I was like surprised, and waved a peace to him. Then, we went to KFC, grab our dinner there. Thanks to tukang belanje :). Ohh, not forgetting, our new friend, Syukri aka Keri whom joined us yesterday. Then, we went to some kedai to look for few more things and done, we went home.

P/S : Thousands thanks to all my friends, Fatimah Hidayat Abu Bakar, Waheeda Abdu Wahab, Norsyuhada Johan, Ahmad Sahal SJ Mohd Zaki for the tremendous, wonderful, meaningful, blissful, and full of barakah meeting we had, Insyallah :') I'm happy that you guys would stay by my side in thick and thin, in  black and white, in happy and sorrow, in deep and bright, in all circumstances, I love you guys the most! UKHWAHFILLAH, INSHALLAH...

**Asif Fatimah, your picture is not here, but you are always in here(pointing to my chest :) **

A decent friendship :)

Ouh, how's life is full with greatness and blissful...(If you go through it with a smiling heart indeed). I just walk through my FB, browse through my noti, happened to found this >>

I'm so happy with all these fellow around me, and I love them so d*mn much! Even words can't say it...I hope this ukhwah will stay till Jannah :)

Perhaps real meant of friend?

I went out with my friends, one of them is telling more to mengadu about her love story. Her story is indeed long and like never lasting, but I keep on listening until the very end, and I replied with just some quote,

Me : Adda, aku just nak bgtau ni jer, we are looking for man not to be our husband, but to be the father our kids, any man can be our husband, but not any man can be the father of our kids...
A : Ermmmmm....

And she end up posting my quote up her wall, bet this quote really give her a deep thinking perhaps...

Dear coffee...

She sipped my self made coffee, and she said "ouuuu, pahit!", I answered "its for my sleepy head" :p
Mood : Finishing and harmonising my dear Ecology report :)

Quote for today...

'Cinta x semestinya memiliki'

I've used to...

I've used to like him, and I think I always do...( after stalking his page, haha gedik! )
p/s : MR I perhaps?