Those memory.

When I flip back the pages of memory, those tak-nak-ingat moment appears, and all in all it hurt a bit in there. I don't know why, maybe because how you was before. And now, in present, I know I wasn't really the choice, but it was out of choice that you chooses me. Knew that though. I just hope are happy with what you do and still won't forget me in the future. Because I really misses the old time back when we're just friend.
P/s : Rather losing love than a friend though.  

My first time. Our first time in fact.

7 years of friendship. Today is the highlight of it. First time in 7 years of friendships, celebration, events, Raya eve, Ramdhan feast and so on. And today, it's the first time for me to meet my bestboyfriend mom's. I called his mom Umi. So, basically, my bestfriends moms are all so called as Umi. Fatimah's mom, Umi and Adham's mom, Umi too. And they call my mom Ibu. This is somewhat bestfriends I think(what a crap! Suke suki kamu ja nak nilai friendship!). So, after I reached his house, I get down and meet Umi first. Umi is sapu-ing aka membersih halaman rumah, I come and hi-ed.

Me : Assalamualaikum Umi.
Umi : Ni sape ni? Ain ke?
Me : Yep mi, ni Ain. Baru jupe kite. (sambil salam)
Umi : Oh, yg dkt FB tu eh?
Me : A'ah, yg dkt FB tu.

(Okay, the interesting part is that, Umi kenal pulak aku dekat FB ye. Hihi.)
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In the car, told him yang Umi kenal aku kt FB. Dan dye jawab,
"Aii, Umi kan stalker! Haha"

P/s : Umi, ni anak bujang Umi kate Umi stalker. Haha. Padan muke u.
P/ss : Entri ini sangat merapu dan penuh carutan. Sila abaikan. Terimakasih.

Koibito.

Browse through my old entries. Met koibito. Used to call him that. But that was long ago. I hope he's doing fine, inshaAllah. And may Allah bless and protect him. Though he's my past, he's always a friend. A helping hand indeed.

I am a loser.

Such a loser. You are. You are a loser. Such a jerk. A dork. A moron. Such one. You are not worth it. You are not a friend. You don't deserve to be one and to own one. Such a loser!

Rather an interesting day for me :)

I went out with my fellow darlings yesterday(I meant 2 days ago, I was late in updating this darling readers, sorry!), Darling Adda, Darling Eda & Fatimah Sayang. I went out with Fa after Zohor prayer, we went directly to Yellow Town and grab a seat in AnW. We sat there, and have an indeed long chat. We talk, we chat, we laugh, we giggles, we love each other :) and that's it, final! For me, having a chat with her that, has made me a rather different person, I have become a pusher to her. All this while, I only become her neutralizer, I would always lay out a solution that would make support her or make her happy, but yesterday, I become her pusher, and indeed, I need to, she was telling me about a rather the most important thing in a women life, its like the biggest event in her life  I bet(if it was me, it IS the most important thing in my life, the penentuan of you going to Jannah or Saqar). After that, she sent me home, and I went out with Eda and Adda, we went shopping to Tunas Manja, getting things for cooking spaghetti. WE ARE MAKING SPAGHETTI TODAY(singing happily :D)_AND ONCE AGAIN, IT'S YESTERDAY I MEANT, SORRY AGAIN DEAR READERS!_. Then, we went to Yellow Town, wandering there for like hours, looking for this and that. Within that, met(coincidentally actually) with my ex-scandal, mr R(bukan nama sebenar), and to be exact he hi-ed me first, I was like surprised, and waved a peace to him. Then, we went to KFC, grab our dinner there. Thanks to tukang belanje :). Ohh, not forgetting, our new friend, Syukri aka Keri whom joined us yesterday. Then, we went to some kedai to look for few more things and done, we went home.

P/S : Thousands thanks to all my friends, Fatimah Hidayat Abu Bakar, Waheeda Abdu Wahab, Norsyuhada Johan, Ahmad Sahal SJ Mohd Zaki for the tremendous, wonderful, meaningful, blissful, and full of barakah meeting we had, Insyallah :') I'm happy that you guys would stay by my side in thick and thin, in  black and white, in happy and sorrow, in deep and bright, in all circumstances, I love you guys the most! UKHWAHFILLAH, INSHALLAH...

**Asif Fatimah, your picture is not here, but you are always in here(pointing to my chest :) **

Don't...

Appreciate the privileges of being friend, don't cross the LINE...